Today is our 9th wedding anniversary. It will be our last wedding anniversary.
About three weeks ago, my world began to collapse. Since then, I have learned that my wife had been very unhappy and now considers our marriage to be over. To her, it was too late to try to repair the damage. Counseling focused on our internal feelings and on the mechanics of breaking up and not on reconciliation.
Deeply hurt, I struggled to understand why it was over. The decision had been made unilaterally and I never felt so powerless in my life.
I raced through the stages of grief, trying to catch up. I still don’t understand what happened and why, but I now accept it. I accept that nothing will change her mind at this point.
With a huge amount of support from friends and family, I do understand some things about myself.
I am a good dad, and I was a good husband. I wasn’t perfect, but I tried to do my best.
I am focused on doing my best to help my children and my wife get though this. I will be fair to my wife, my children, and to myself.
I have hope for future. It won’t be the future I envisioned nine years ago, but as long as I draw breath, I will have hope.
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